No offense Hegeman

AP English can be a serious headache at times. Right now in my mind I'm saying that I better pass that AP test this year after all this work we doing.
So we are reading a book called Heart Of Darkness and I hate it. The book is hard to understand and sometimes he be doing too much when describing certain things. This book is only like what 100 pages and we been reading it for 4 weeks now and still not done. Yea that's how hard it is. When we read it in class we have to stop about 4 times per page because it gets really confusing. Especially since Conrad (the author) sometimes doesn't use names for certain characters; we would sit in class like who is Marlow (main character) talking too. There's certain parts of the book that are easier to understand and interesting but other than that I personally don't like the book and I cant wait till we finish because next is Beloved and that book sounds interesting. No offense Ms. Hegeman!

My Worst Nightmare

One thing I will constantly talk about is college because that's where most of us will be soon. My dream is to go away to college to get the full experience. But there are 2 things that are stopping my dream from coming true: acceptance letters and MONEYYYYY!!!

People see me and just assume that I will get accepted to all the colleges that I want and I have nothing to worry about. That started being somewhat true, as of today I have gotten 10-11 acceptance letters. But the bad thing is that my top SUNY denied me (University at Buffalo) because of my SAT scores and I literally broke down. I am now scared that the schools I really want to go to will now deny me and now I also need to pick another top NY school. The school I really want to go to is Drexel University, but m strict parents don't want me out the state and also that school is expensive and doesn't give good financial aid, which leads to the second thing stopping my dream.
I believe I have the best combination for a person who needs help with college which is smart and broke. So far I have not won any scholarship which also has me doubting if I will ever get one. So right now I'm just doubting everything but I am praying one of my tops accept me soon so I can feel better about myself.
Hmm maybe Ill switch my top NY school to Hobart and William Smith College. Still thinking though. But anyway I also hope I win some type of scholarship soon.

ID: Egg Experiment

here i go talking about physics again lol.
so in physics we are doing an egg experiment where we need to created a way where the egg wont crack from being released from the ceiling. it is really fun but sad when your egg cracks. unfortunately my groups egg cracked and i was very sad. but we will not have our egg crack in our next test. but overall i really like physics. teachers are still surprised that i didn't take AP bio but i knew i didn't want that because its unnecessary for me since i need physics. Ms. Hudson is a really fun and down to earth teacher and I am actually kind of close with her. she is a teacher i definitely would miss when i graduate. the homework is really hard but i do enjoy the class.

here is a picture of my groups egg (Miles Reyna and Lavonnie)
on the left is him first born (cute right) and on the right is when he died.

R.I.P Eggy  February 23, 2015- February 24, 2015  you will be missed :(

Parents and College

So I was talking to my mother and she doesn't think I am "ready to go away". So this is how I feel about this quote that I know most parents say to the seniors.

Children need to explore on their own to know how to deal with things. For example to me a female should at least go through having 1 boyfriend before college because if they go through a serious break up you never know how they will react in college so its better to go through it in college. Now that kind of goes with not being ready to go away but it doesn't a bit (sorry if this is starting to get confusing). As becoming almost an adult we need to experience things on our own and learn from our own mistakes so we can have a strong mindset of getting through life. If parents baby us all the way through then we will be lost as an adult not really knowing what to do. Going away to college will teach us first of all how to budget because we all know our parents not giving us money 24/7 so we need to manage our spending.  Also we all need to learn how to manage our time and college will definitely teach us that lesson. Parents we don't need you breathing down our necks like we need to breathe. We need to be set free and be able to go on our own .  I'm not going to type everything we will learn but one main thing would be living on our own and dealing with people. We will be picking things for our dorm and living with a complete stranger. This will teach us about socializing with people and keeping ourselves clean (room and body if your dirty).

I don't want to keep talking on and on but I am always having this same conversation with adults about this. Yea sometimes we cant afford to go away but try to win scholarships. And if you have to live at home like if that's the last option then make the best of it. We as young adults deserve some freedom and I believe going away to college is a big start with that.

P.S My bad if I went hard!

New Diet

So to be honest no one understands this but I truly hate my body (mainly my stomach). I believe I'm fat and this is because I am overweight. After my surgery a few years ago everything changed especially my metabolism. Like if you knew me before 8th grade, you would know how thin I was. I started to give up because nothing was working. I try to work out but its like I need encouragement and motivation in order for me to keep going. I also feel like I need a work out buddy (well I don't feel like I do, I know I do). But one thing I am creating is my own diet. Its not going to be a simple diet, its going to take a lot of commitment and some creativity. One thing I do recommend for people who are trying to lose weight is organic green tea. This tea is healthy and helps speed up your metabolism and one place where I get it from is Teavana. This place also has a cool tea maker where you add leaves and hot water then you sit it on top of a cup and it makes tea for you (forgot the name of it). I will be buying it soon but for now I make my own tea.

But anyway I may try to become a pescetarian which is an omnivore who excludes poultry, beef, and pork from their diet but includes fish. This will be hard because I don't know if my mom will only buy me seafood since chicken is cheaper. I am also going to cut out a lot of things such as white rice, processed foods, sugar, and baked pastries (the hardest one). I will not however give up ice cream because that is my passion and I am addicted to it. I did start making detox tea and detox water but I have to buy more ingredients. Also as a snack in my house I would eat dried fruit and regular fresh fruit.

My goal is to fix what I don't like about myself so I can start being happy about myself and how I look. I need to start making time to work out in my home. I will be starting my diet next week because I need to get everything organized and together so good luck to me and I promise to be committed to it.
And please don't judge how I feel about myself I believe I am fat so yea you cant change my mind on what I see myself as.

P.S Off topic but my birthday was so fun and you guys made me feel so special. Thank you so much everyone <3
P.S.S If you want to know about my diet just ask me. 

CRR: Break Homework

so this break the AP class had to memorize a sonnet and recite it to the class. i found memorizing the poem to be quite interesting and not so bad as a assignment. I am not really good at analyzing poems but i hope i did better for the one i had to memorize. but goodness these grammar rules are killing me, one point i understand it and the next i don't and then i get my paper back saying R&R and that gets annoying. also how we all did bad on our feminism essays and we have to do that all over like ughh Ms. Hegeman.
(im sorry you guys i had to release my feelings)
anyway the break home work  was interesting and i cant wait to go cause now i want to get it over with. and also I would like to talk about the timed writings. those are the second worse assignments we do in class. I don't really want to take the AP test at all because i know ima fail just like last year so whats the point.
 I don't know what else to say so I end my blog here.
oh wait by the way im hype because my birthday is January 20th  I will be somewhat legal.
OK now this is the end

One of my Favorite Shows

I love the show Degrassi!! I hear a lot of people saying how this show is fake and doesn't show what high school is really like and well they are right. It may not show the perfect high school but what goes on in the show can happen in any school. Here at TMA I can name a student and a character on Degrassi and show how they are alike (not throwing subs). Many of the situations that happened on the show happens in real life. Young girls getting pregnant, people receiving threats, friendships being broken, relationships becoming history; this list can go on. For those who don’t know this show takes place in Toronto, Canada so obviously it will be a bit different. Don’t judge things till you take the time to truly watch and observe something.

But anyway I need to talk about this episode.

So one of the characters, Alli, who is a smart black girl got accepted to Cambridge in England but her boyfriend doesn't want her to leave him. Cute right! So she takes the time to research a hockey program for him since he is the best and not he has nothing to worry about. Miles is this boy who out of nowhere turns gay and is going through family issues and decides to smoke weed. After he does he starts changing and skipping school and his boyfriend Tristan thinks he is addicted to weed and wants to help him but everyone knows Miles will hate anyone who tries to help him. Claire is one of the smartest girls in Degrassi and surprise she gets pregnant by an athlete and has to raise a baby yet still wants to go to Columbia University. She decides to keep the baby because she is a cancer survivor and doctors said with her situation she wouldn't be able to have a child so she believes this will be her only chance. Zoe is a girl who has been through a lot such as being a rape victim but I don’t like her because she is the person who thinks it’s all about her and if its not her way she will force it to be her way even if it’s wrong. So her and the young cheerleading squad (most of them are 9^th graders and she is a junior) decide to start this sex website where they take naked pics anonymously and people have to pay to see them (Zoe's idea). They made a lot of money but she is shutting it down because an outsider (outside the cheer squad) knows about it and is sending threats to her phone and the whole squad. Poor girls besides Zoe.

I did add some extra stuff that wasn't on the episode today (Claire) but yea as you can see I truly love Degrassi and after that little brief intro of the few characters I explained above I bet you can name someone that relates to almost all of them. This show has been on for 14 seasons and I truly love them all. If you want to watch it the new episodes it comes on Tuesdays @ 9 on TeenNick and we can talk about it together.

P.S. For those who don’t know Drake aka Jimmy was on seasons 1-8.(just wanted to add that)