New Passion

Don"t worry my passion of decorative for events as i posted earlier in the school year is still there.

This isn't really a passion I guess, but this is something I need to start doing and that is loving the person I am. Yea majority of the time I am always doubting myself on everything: how I look, what I do what I say etc.. I believe the reason why I am writing this is because prom is coming up.
 I was never really excited about prom and at first I truly didn't want to go. I decided to go still not really caring about it. After today spending 4 hours helping my friend get ready and watching all her other classmates get ready (at someones house) my anxiety started to increase. I am not even going to lie this is a bit off topic but the class of 2015 so far has really bodieddddd prom (peep the emphasis on all the d's).  After watching her today and tearing up a bit I realized that I should be a bit excited about prom. I know I definitely wont win best dressed or even be in the top 15 best dressed but I realized who cares. This will be the first time I fully dress up and everything. I believe I am doubting myself because I wont like the way I look dealing with my hair and body. But i just pray everything goes right so that my sensitive ass wont cry even though there is a possibility that I will.

P.S I still by Saturday need to buy shoes, a clutch, jewelry, a makeup artist, how I will have my hair, and my nails. Yea its a lot but i also pray I find everything this weekend.

this year...........

So senior year has been fun and all but it hasn't been going as I planned. My plan was to have a prom outfit by the beginning of May and to go away for college and to save a ton of money. Everything happened the opposite. To this day I still have no idea how I will look for prom and I don’t think I will look all fabulous and all. Unfortunately I can’t go away to college because I can’t afford if and no I haven’t won a scholarship. This is a real bummer for me because my dream is to go away and that can’t happen because of my financial status and the government decides to be cheap with giving me money. Now it is basically the end of the school year and I have to rush to find money and everything for prom and the rest of the year. I feel that teachers shouldn't give any more work because school is technically over we are already stressed enough especially me. Well now I have to take a CUNY placement test and it better be easy because I would like to be placed in a higher level class. So whoever staying in the city for college see you around this year because I will be going away once May 2016 hits. Also I am going to City Tech (Brooklyn) yayy (sarcasm voice).

But anyway senior trip was so much fun and I wish it was longer. I can’t wait till prom and Six Flags after prom sounds so much fun. Graduation will be so sad but we won’t be saying goodbye to each other, we would be saying see you soon because I know I am not ready to say goodbye to some people at TMA.

Including weekends and all here are some countdowns:

Rites of passage: 7 days

Prom: 21 days

Senior BBQ: 27 days

Graduation: 42 days

This is all I have but I hope everyone is enjoying their senior year!!!!! :)